As I’m sitting here typing this, I’m thinking is this a waste of my time. Why am I writing on here every day? I love the non-AI real blog that I have but it’s not monetized so while I’m working toward that, I need to earn money now.
Need to trade time for money or have recurring revenue
One of the reasons I cannot stand being on TikTok is that I am not earning any money. Since as long as I’ve had kids (and before) I’ve worked. Once I started working remotely, I was lucky to be able to juggle it around my kids.
When my kids they are in school, I work. I am used to working on my websites and earning money.
However, in trying to find replacement income for my websites (that I’m not ready to give up yet) I’m getting frustrated.
Not knowing what to focus on
What I’m doing is things that are taking my time. I get really stressed out thinking about it. I know I already have trouble focusing and staying on task.
When I’m bouncing from trying to learn about doing something new, writing on here, updating my other websites, updating my LinkedIn profile, starting a resume, posting every day on here, and making videos for TikTok, plus all the usual household things, it’s really been stressing me out.
How I spend my days
I am having trouble focusing on the important things. I tend to do the easy things and the routine things… Laundry, empty out the dishwasher, and keep posting and engaging on TikTok. I am keeping up with my walking.
But I still have a huge list of things that I’m not doing. A few that have been on my to-do list for longer than necessary are:
Personal health things
- Making a darn mammogram appointment. This will take just a few minutes. Why am I not doing it? I should have made one back in December.
- Find a new dentist. I’m going to need a crown… What am I waiting for?
- Get my bloodwork done. I was supposed to do this in November! I just need to not drink anything after going to bed and go the next morning.
Random one-off things
- Buy a birthday card and write a nice letter to a former neighbor/decades-long family friend. It was supposed to be a birthday surprise from his kids (that everyone write) and I’m over a month late!
- Jury duty questionnaire. I got the letter and completed the first round of questions. Then they send something else to complete. What am I waiting for?
- Donate money to kids we know. We got two solicitations asking for donations for their sports’ teams. Why can’t I just pay it and move on?
Ongoing things
- Organize TikTok samples. I need to do a massive sorting of TikTok samples. I need to put away some of them because they are overtaking my life. The clutter! I hate looking at the pile of them that grows larger ever few days.
Ordering some things
- I have a few online things I need to order from random companies that I’m procrastinating. Something I learned about myself is a procrastinate spending money because I’m so stressed about money all the time.
Some other things too
I would say those are my most pressing. I also have lingering things that I need to do:
- Visit and help an elderly friend.
- Call my mom, aunt, mother-in-law, father-in-law
- Call friends who have called me that I never called back
I have so many friends that I have not kept up with who have called me and I have not called back. Nor have I called my mother or my sister in a few weeks. What am I so busy doing?
I know I’m doing TikTok every day. Is that more important than calling my mother? No!
I do think keeping up with my walking every day is a priority, and I’m going to keep doing that. Is writing on here everyday a priority or should I be focusing on my website that actually earn money? That’s what I think I need to be doing.
Getting bogged down
I think I need to stop this for a little while. I’m not sure. Maybe instead of doing it every day, I do it every couple of days. I’m really feeling all over the place. I need to get something going, some income.
And I get so bogged down with all of these other things because I don’t have a main thing i.e. a job. I used to focus all my time on my websites. Then I started focusing on growing TikTok to become an Amazon Influencer and TikTok Affiliate.
They haven’t panned out moneywise. I’m still going from morning until night. I’m very much feeling all over the place. My house is disaster … so many things to do and feeling so overwhelmed with everything.