Weight: 150.4
It only took until 12:15pm today to get inspired to write. We were in car driving to kid activity #2 and husband spaced out and turned too early. Reacting as usually (negatively) to any stressful situation, he started lashing out at me. He even duh-ed me in the car because I didn’t tell him which direction to go. “All you had to do was to say keep going… it’s one mile from here.”
Keep in mind, we’ve been driving to this location that’s 45 -50 minutes away from our house for years. But I don’t care that he messed up driving; I care that he was yelling at me about it.
And yes, our child was in the back seat on the way to his event that he needed to focus on.
With my husband, nothing is ever his fault; it’s always other people’s.
In addition, he is a very aggressive driver. While I think it’s important to discuss driving safely with our teens, it’s really hypocritical of him because he is very reckless. He has perfected the art of: Do as I say not as I do.
We Got Along Yesterday
It’s hurtful to try to get along and then it’s going well and then he turns on me like this.
It really ruined everything for the short rest of the drive, and I’m sure upset our son.
I have been so supportive of my husband this week since returning from my trip, really trying hard these last few days as he prepared for his interview and then discussing it afterward.
He Was Fine Until He Ate the Frozen Pizza
I know for myself when I eat poorly, I feel poorly. When he ate today, it was some real food and mostly leftover frozen pizza. As soon as he stated eating it — he ate a lot— he was incessantly clearing his throat which in addition to being gross and annoying made me want to scream to him to stop eating crap and acting crap to me.
He thinks he has high emotional intelligence but his reactions to everything — me, kids, “bad drivers”, say otherwise.
I always wonder what our kids think— here is dad preaching again when he should be looking to improve his own self.
Hopefully tonight will be better.
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