I’m proud of myself for sticking to journaling every day. I often start things and do well for a time but then taper off. Journaling here is something I really want to stick with.
We had our trip to state playoffs round 3 yesterday, and while our team lost, they played great and were excellent teammates and friends. They built each other up and stuck together. This, despite playing a rival with very loud fans!
All great things! I am so happy for these boys, especially because they’ve been together for four years.
They all went out after and had a great time. Now, it’s on to finish the school year, and for all of them, that means getting sleep and ready for their AP exams.
Proud of Myself
I drove there yesterday and half the way back which eliminated a lot of the issues with my husband. He’s an aggressive driver, and I’m scared a lot of the time when I’m in the car with him. But because I drove, this was a non-issue. It was great.
I’m also proud of myself of being mostly quiet in the car and not riling up my husband. We are oil and water. I have to be very careful what I say around him. Two nights ago, I said something that I thought was harmless, and about 30 minutes later in the kitchen I heard a noise and thought maybe he was on speaker phone or had a podcast on. I realized it was him imitating me! OMGosh. That was a new low.
Alas, I will try to do the things that I know work: 1) Let him be in charge; 2) Tell him how great he is (subtly); 3) Keep to myself.
Hoping I can do it Day 2!
Hating End of the School Year Pressures
More than ever, as this school year winds down, I just want a weekend of nothingness. Son Two has games today and tomorrow. I know he has tons of homework and projects due as well. So even though Son One’s season ended yesterday, there is still lots to do. Plus, Son One has to rank his dorms and submit a bunch of stuff for the college he chose. Son Two has to pick camps he wants to do this summer.
Wish I Was More In-the-Know
All this last minute stuff when school stuff is crazy right now. I wish I were better at helping them. There are several mom friends I have (and many others I don’t like) who are ultra-involved in their kids’ schoolwork, sports trajectory, and more.
I wish I had the energy or desire to help as well but I don’t. I rationalize this by thinking that my kids have done things on their own and will be ultimately better off for it. I have a friend who is going away with one of her kids during finals week and is stressing because she won’t be there to support her high schooler who will have finals. This student is straight A.
I get upset talking with the mom because she knows so much, and I wish my kids told me stuff about what they are learning. She looks at their homework, papers, knows about the quizzes and tests, etc. It makes me feel horrible for not knowing any of this.
However, my kids also get excellent grades and are in challenging classes and aren’t getting any of my help. So I need to let this go. But I would like to know more about my kids’ day-to-day school life.